It has happened, I met a woman through that website, and I met her today. It was perhaps one of the most nervous moments I have had for a long time. Over coming doubts about whether she would show up, would I chicken out and walk past the bar? She is a really nice woman, she is alluring, smart and funny. We have many things in common, and a few things that we perhaps don't as yet share similar views of, but then I believe differences make spice for a relationship, and spice turns bland into exciting.
She wants to meet me again too, something I am deeply chuffed about. It does my self esteem good to know that someone wants to spend some time with me. I have a nagging issue in my head though from the break down of my last relationship, and thats how to keep myself exciting to know and be around? While I am sure that anyone who knows me, finds my company good, I wouldn't say many find me exciting. I am so often level headed, and laid back about many things, that I am the atheisis of comfortable.
I have to stop making excuses for not doing things, and start to think up reasons to actually do things. The lady, (she shall remain nameless here) aluded to weekends away, or short breaks into Europe as somethings she likes to do, and I distinctly got the impression she would like to do this with me perhaps in the not too distant future. Now, whilst enthusiasitic about said breaks, the practical nature of me, desperately wonders how the hell I would be able to afford to do them. I guess, where there is the will, there will be the way, and I just need to find the will to make this happen.
I am happy, and trying not to jump the gun. I just hope that I can sustain her interest in me beyond just wanting to be friends. I feel I need a little more now from my female companionship, and hope she wants the same from me too. Time will tell, but its a good start.
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